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October 2009 
All I Want Is a Room Somewhere...
Posted on Sep 9th, 2008
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drechanteuse
drechanteuse
Oh, this is utterly crazy. I want to do something crazy. I want to take chances. I want to be safe. I guess I am somewhat conflicted, but what else is new?
New? Well, I am going to have another surgery. This one, while not as scary as breast cancer, is scary enough just because it is surgery. I don't like the idea of being unconscious, especially since my 2nd cousin Dolores died while having a similar operation because she was allergic to the anesthetic. I know, times have changed and things are more advanced now, and they are probably even more careful now because of malpractice lawsuits. However, I can still be a bit scared, right?
I wouldn't even have the operation if it wasn't a quality of life issue, but it is. I finally decided that enough is enough. Having this recurring problem that makes everything really hard to deal with is just too difficult to deal with on a forever type of basis. I am giving in. I need to have this done so that I won't be living these crazy cycles.
I also have a dream. The dream is emerging from I don't know where, but it is something that I've thought about for a long time now. I want to start a foundation to help children who are struggling in school. I am not sure if that means directly helping the children, or funding research to reform education, or maybe both... but I think it has more to do with my artistic side. What does creativity have to do with success in school? In life?
My mom and I looked at this big old house the other day. It had been a church, and before that possibly a funeral home. Whoo -oo-ooh. Yes, there were doors creaking and windows slamming as we walked through. It was huge, and it had the places I would need to run this foundation of my dreams. I began to really think about it. Can I do it? Not alone, for sure.
Yet, with the right group of people, it might be possible. Well, it is possible, as long as I don't start thinking it isn't.
There are so many uestions to be answered and ideas to be sorted through and things to be worked out as I formulate my plan. However, I am very talented, extremely smart, and really hard-working and dedicated. I would like help unravel some of the mystery of why children aren't doing so well in our schools anymore. I would like to research, organize and help fund programs that will make a difference. Heck, I would like to buy that house and run it from right there, but see, (holding out my empty pockets) I may be dreaming again.
Or maybe not. Maybe there is a way if I really stick to it and get my plan together. What do you guys think? Has anyone reading ever gone way out on a limb to start something and been successful at it? I tend to doubt myself too much. I need to hear a few success stories to change my "I think I can" into "I know I can."
What does this have to do with surgery? I can understand if you are asking yourself that, but I know. It is the getting rid of an old hindrance and opening doors to new possibilities.
That's the connection I see.
New? Well, I am going to have another surgery. This one, while not as scary as breast cancer, is scary enough just because it is surgery. I don't like the idea of being unconscious, especially since my 2nd cousin Dolores died while having a similar operation because she was allergic to the anesthetic. I know, times have changed and things are more advanced now, and they are probably even more careful now because of malpractice lawsuits. However, I can still be a bit scared, right?
I wouldn't even have the operation if it wasn't a quality of life issue, but it is. I finally decided that enough is enough. Having this recurring problem that makes everything really hard to deal with is just too difficult to deal with on a forever type of basis. I am giving in. I need to have this done so that I won't be living these crazy cycles.
I also have a dream. The dream is emerging from I don't know where, but it is something that I've thought about for a long time now. I want to start a foundation to help children who are struggling in school. I am not sure if that means directly helping the children, or funding research to reform education, or maybe both... but I think it has more to do with my artistic side. What does creativity have to do with success in school? In life?
My mom and I looked at this big old house the other day. It had been a church, and before that possibly a funeral home. Whoo -oo-ooh. Yes, there were doors creaking and windows slamming as we walked through. It was huge, and it had the places I would need to run this foundation of my dreams. I began to really think about it. Can I do it? Not alone, for sure.
Yet, with the right group of people, it might be possible. Well, it is possible, as long as I don't start thinking it isn't.
There are so many uestions to be answered and ideas to be sorted through and things to be worked out as I formulate my plan. However, I am very talented, extremely smart, and really hard-working and dedicated. I would like help unravel some of the mystery of why children aren't doing so well in our schools anymore. I would like to research, organize and help fund programs that will make a difference. Heck, I would like to buy that house and run it from right there, but see, (holding out my empty pockets) I may be dreaming again.
Or maybe not. Maybe there is a way if I really stick to it and get my plan together. What do you guys think? Has anyone reading ever gone way out on a limb to start something and been successful at it? I tend to doubt myself too much. I need to hear a few success stories to change my "I think I can" into "I know I can."
What does this have to do with surgery? I can understand if you are asking yourself that, but I know. It is the getting rid of an old hindrance and opening doors to new possibilities.
That's the connection I see.
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I say DREAM BIG and NEVER STOP DREAMING! Trust your gut, trust yourself. You are your own greatest teacher! I am so excited for you.
Gosh, I do wish that dreams weren’t underrated like they are today. So much of what we see as reality is not, first thing and all of the most significant advancements started as dreams somewhere!
First I want to tell you, put health first yes, and especially Quality of Life… that one’s a biggie for me as you may know.
But that vision of yours is so worthwhile, how could you possibly think it’s not possible? That’s kind of redundant writing sorry lol I assure you, if you have a vision it is definitely possible. And stepping out into it releases the forces for it to take place.
I’m focussed on reforming education myself, starting with adults. And bit by bit I am making progress. Incredibly I’m now working at a university and can influence the whole school from my position; I could only have dreamed of this in a distant future! But it happened in under three years… and I must admit, I enjoyed the journey all the way because it felt right. Know what I mean?
Hope your health concern picks up and you might ask if they’d allow you to concentrate on your dream and use less anaesthesia ;)
Good luck to you! Sherri
Here's a little tip to get you through this - as you are preparing yourself for surgery, a few days ahead of time, and as you are actually there at the hospital, relax yourself by seeing yourself in what you would envision as the ideal place to have your foundation, and while you're in that place, think of something healthy and delicious that will make you feel just slightly hungry. Tell yourself that as you emerge from the anesthesia that you will feel just slightly hungry.
This will do three things: first off - you will be giving yourself the suggestion that you do intend to come through this surgery easily; second - it isn't possible to feel nauseated and a bit hungry at the same time; and third - so it ensures you'll be ready to nourish your body toward health as you move forward. You may also find that you may “dream” about the best place to get started on your foundation - use this as an opportunity to access the deeper layers of your being to get the answers you're seeking now.
Big Hugs ~ ~ ~ ^v^ ~ ~ ~
Gem,
You are so wonderful. aI will begin my dream-meal planning now, so I am well prepared. I will also begin envisioning my foundation. It's funny, because every day, more and more is being revealed to me about language and learning. That's a very good sign. It's helping me to cement my ideas.
Sherri,
How nice to meet you here. Thanks for taking the time to write your lovely response. It's nice to meet others who are interested in education.
xo
Andrea
I say go with your dreams, sounds a pretty cool idea. Good luck with the operationRemember the bright children struggle in the system as well as the slower ones.My adopted daughters IQ was at genius level, she was an all round creative, excelled at art poetry drama music craft etc, but bored by the school system, she could read by 3 and when she started school she had to sit through learning to read again with the class, of course she found other distractions. Her abilities were not catered for despite my pleas to the school, Children grow despite the system , but how much better if the schools encouraged abilities.
Hi Gael.
Actually my 'draw' to the Education System is indeed how limiting the criteria are for 'making it through' it, and consequently how diversity is not handled well and effectively. And I believe creativity is the biggest gift anybody could give to the world right now. Lord, we need some quick and bright ideas!
So again I endorse your vision and dream completely!
Do good; be good! Love S.
Wow, how nice it feels to have your sentiments echoed. Yes! Students are sitting bored in classrooms, learning needs and desires not being met. Yes, creativity is being stomped out of the schools that need it most. Diversity is not handled well. Parents have different sets of challenges these days, and many students begin school far less prepared than decades ago.
Achievement gaps are flourishing in spite of many efforts to bridge them. I want to look at the reasons why. I want to bring a change - a real change. It is long overdue.
Thanks for supporting my dream and advocating better education.
Love to you both!
Andrea