I Have a Question
Posted on May 2nd, 2008
by
drechanteuse
If you were going to do a Master's Degree, would you do it in something practical, or something you love? Feedback, please...
Here's the story -
I have always been an excellent student. Undergraduate, I started as a psychology major, but after taking note that all the psych professors had unruly thinning hair, pants 3 inches too short for them, and were just generally extremely geeky looking, coupled with the thought that I didn't want to wind up stuffed in a 6x6 corner office somewhere without a window, I bailed.
I went running to the theatre department as fast as I could, following my heart which was out about three paces ahead of me, overjoyed, because I was finally going to listen to its truest desires. I was going to sing to the stars and the moon, tap dance up the walls and on the ceiling, I was going to act (up at least.)I was going to design theatre sets and costumes for my favorite plays. I could feel the blood pumping through my veins. I felt so alive.
Well, as it turned out, I got cast in every play Tennessee Williams or Lillian Hellman ever wrote (which blew my mind because I never thought of myself as the Southern Belle.) I made history in my Meisner class, and in my Musical Theatre Improv class. I was pressed to go forth to grad school as a scene designer by the Chair of that program, and lauded by the Costume Design professor for my artistic talent. I became involved in the then unofficial Film Program and excelled at screenwriting.
I decided to go to grad school for film, and was accepted by two prestigious universities. I decided to follow my professor and go all the way across the country to study Film Production. About three quarters of the way through my first year, I learned that I had some really bad thing wrong with me, which wound up being Systemic Lupus Erythamatosis. I didn't finish my degree because I was three thousand miles from home, all by myself, with no support of any kind.
Feeling like my dream was sort of ripped out from under me, I returned home to Arizona to get diagnosed, and try to discover a way to live in harmony with the wretched disease that was, at the time, threatening my life. After I stabilized, I went back to school to take a few art classes, and eventually moved to California to study animation. I wound up getting hired by Universal Music Group, and singing with a band in Pacific Palisades, California. Though my dream had been to write movies, I was getting closer all the time.
After September 11th, the new owners of Universal (Vivendi) used the attacks and slowed economy as an excuse to thin all experimental departments at Universal, and I found myself almost out on the street (luckily, I had two jobs.) Every entertainment company was laying off, so I went sideways and decided to become a teacher. I had always been good with kids. Great with kids. My aunt had been a teacher all of her working life, no matter that every other person in the family was an artist or actor or musician or some combination of those three.
Well, now I need to go back to the university to clear my teaching credential. I figured, while I'm there, why not get a Masters. After all, in searching the want ads, I've noticed that a Bachelor's these days will get you a managerial job at the fast food chain that you tried to avoid working at at all costs by going to college. So, I'm thinking, "Get a Master's in Creative Literacies in Education."
Then I'm thinking, "No, Andrea. You should do what you really want to do. Why get a degree in education when you want to get a degree so you can switch jobs. You have come home after after-school tutoring and planned lessons until 9 o'clock at night, only to have them walk in the next morning and tell you that you show evidence of lack of planning. You are miserable, have become physically ill from this, and just had a lump removed from your breast that you believe was a noxious lump of poison grown out of your inability to effectively cope with the harrassment you have been subjected to at school. Why would you want to continue this?
But teaching is noble, right? And I'm helping so many kids, changing so many lives, right?
I've always wanted to be a writer, work in the entertainment industry, or just write stories. I wouldn't mind working here in Los Angeles at a University teaching about the entertainment industry eventually. I have good connections. I know 'em all. Spielberg, Katzenberg, Anthony Hopkins, Tom Hanks, Sally Field, Frances Fisher, drop name here, drop name here... I've always been an excellent writer as well.
I feel foolish for being confused this late in the game of life, but I am me to the core, and "me" sees every side of things, always. I need feedback. I need advice. I have three choices. Of course the education degree program would be the easiest to enter, because they need teachers. It would also gurantee employment (the likes of which I have mentioned above, possibly.) I have an insatiable desire for knowledge, and am a lifelong learner. I also have a Los Angeles-sized house payment to consider. Should I do an M.A. in Education, an M.F.A. in Creative Writing, or an M.F.A. in Writing for TV, Film and Media. HELP!!! S.O.S. Send out the National Guard. Give me some feedback, please.
Here's the story -
I have always been an excellent student. Undergraduate, I started as a psychology major, but after taking note that all the psych professors had unruly thinning hair, pants 3 inches too short for them, and were just generally extremely geeky looking, coupled with the thought that I didn't want to wind up stuffed in a 6x6 corner office somewhere without a window, I bailed.
I went running to the theatre department as fast as I could, following my heart which was out about three paces ahead of me, overjoyed, because I was finally going to listen to its truest desires. I was going to sing to the stars and the moon, tap dance up the walls and on the ceiling, I was going to act (up at least.)I was going to design theatre sets and costumes for my favorite plays. I could feel the blood pumping through my veins. I felt so alive.
Well, as it turned out, I got cast in every play Tennessee Williams or Lillian Hellman ever wrote (which blew my mind because I never thought of myself as the Southern Belle.) I made history in my Meisner class, and in my Musical Theatre Improv class. I was pressed to go forth to grad school as a scene designer by the Chair of that program, and lauded by the Costume Design professor for my artistic talent. I became involved in the then unofficial Film Program and excelled at screenwriting.
I decided to go to grad school for film, and was accepted by two prestigious universities. I decided to follow my professor and go all the way across the country to study Film Production. About three quarters of the way through my first year, I learned that I had some really bad thing wrong with me, which wound up being Systemic Lupus Erythamatosis. I didn't finish my degree because I was three thousand miles from home, all by myself, with no support of any kind.
Feeling like my dream was sort of ripped out from under me, I returned home to Arizona to get diagnosed, and try to discover a way to live in harmony with the wretched disease that was, at the time, threatening my life. After I stabilized, I went back to school to take a few art classes, and eventually moved to California to study animation. I wound up getting hired by Universal Music Group, and singing with a band in Pacific Palisades, California. Though my dream had been to write movies, I was getting closer all the time.
After September 11th, the new owners of Universal (Vivendi) used the attacks and slowed economy as an excuse to thin all experimental departments at Universal, and I found myself almost out on the street (luckily, I had two jobs.) Every entertainment company was laying off, so I went sideways and decided to become a teacher. I had always been good with kids. Great with kids. My aunt had been a teacher all of her working life, no matter that every other person in the family was an artist or actor or musician or some combination of those three.
Well, now I need to go back to the university to clear my teaching credential. I figured, while I'm there, why not get a Masters. After all, in searching the want ads, I've noticed that a Bachelor's these days will get you a managerial job at the fast food chain that you tried to avoid working at at all costs by going to college. So, I'm thinking, "Get a Master's in Creative Literacies in Education."
Then I'm thinking, "No, Andrea. You should do what you really want to do. Why get a degree in education when you want to get a degree so you can switch jobs. You have come home after after-school tutoring and planned lessons until 9 o'clock at night, only to have them walk in the next morning and tell you that you show evidence of lack of planning. You are miserable, have become physically ill from this, and just had a lump removed from your breast that you believe was a noxious lump of poison grown out of your inability to effectively cope with the harrassment you have been subjected to at school. Why would you want to continue this?
But teaching is noble, right? And I'm helping so many kids, changing so many lives, right?
I've always wanted to be a writer, work in the entertainment industry, or just write stories. I wouldn't mind working here in Los Angeles at a University teaching about the entertainment industry eventually. I have good connections. I know 'em all. Spielberg, Katzenberg, Anthony Hopkins, Tom Hanks, Sally Field, Frances Fisher, drop name here, drop name here... I've always been an excellent writer as well.
I feel foolish for being confused this late in the game of life, but I am me to the core, and "me" sees every side of things, always. I need feedback. I need advice. I have three choices. Of course the education degree program would be the easiest to enter, because they need teachers. It would also gurantee employment (the likes of which I have mentioned above, possibly.) I have an insatiable desire for knowledge, and am a lifelong learner. I also have a Los Angeles-sized house payment to consider. Should I do an M.A. in Education, an M.F.A. in Creative Writing, or an M.F.A. in Writing for TV, Film and Media. HELP!!! S.O.S. Send out the National Guard. Give me some feedback, please.

Help




How about an MA in a subject you love, which would allow you to teach on the two-year college level (that's what I do)? You would still be teaching, but….you'd be away from the toxicity of the public school politics (we have that, too, but it's not as bad)…and you could still do something related to the entertainment industry.
I'm not sure which degree that would be, though, and what the demand is for a film professor. Perhaps there is some demand out in California… You could then do the writing you want on the side.
Maybe an MA in Education with a concentration in TV, Film, and Media Writing….or a dual degree. That could be pretty cool.
Good luck!
Sometimes the decision works out either way. I pursued a M.S. in computer science, and it was part practical and part interest and to be honest part not wanting to leave college yet. It led to a career that showed me that I didn't love it as much as I thought I would. However, in the process of taking those courses, I met a woman who happened to be a department chair for a computer science department at a community college…and I ended up finding my path.
It might even be worth looking in to changing schools. I have received tenure at my college, and it's nice to have, but I have no fear that if I needed to I could survive a tenure process elsewhere. It is better than being unhappy. Sometimes you can be doing what you love in a place you don't, if that makes sense.
Thank you both for responding to my blog question. It's interesting that you are both teaching. I have tenure as well, but right now, I am miserable. If the principal up and blows away, that could change, and then my decision wouldn't seem so weighted, or dire.
This discussion helped tremendously, though. You both gave me excellent feedback. I know the answer is at my core, and I just have to break through the confusion in my heart to get there.
You are both great friends and virtual listeners.
Thanks again ;)
Andrea
Dear Andrea,
To me the answer is quiet simple. Get rid of the hearts confusion and the heart will tell :) In fact : what wlll make you happy in doing ?
Ach, how could I possibly resist a call for help, advice and feedback?
Listen, what I can offer you is what I'm good at. If you like, I'll do an intuitive collage and a psychic reading for you - I don't have the right answer, but if I get out of the way enough I might be able to support you finding it more easily inside yourself… if you haven't already.
So, let me know if you'd like me to do the collage reading - I might not get to do it before Monday, but I'd love to support you in this way if it feels supportive to you. And I offer this to you as a gift. I don't do these professionally. I used to want to, but I have given up on the whole idea for rather becoming a writer.
I think I'm pretty good at it, though… so if you're curious, let me know!
:)
Gabriele,
I would love you to do a collage reading for me. That would be wonderful. I could really use guidance that comes from somewhere outdside of me righ now, and I am very curious about what you do in your collage readings. Whenever you get a chance, I'd absolutely love it.
Elke, I think you and I both came to the same conclusion, follow your true heart, but it's hard to clear the confusion.
Andrea
I am returning to school again this August to get another Masters degree. This time it is in Comparative Literature and Film. I already have one masters and do not want a PhD…the jobs in teaching are so few and far between and I am over 50…
But I encourage you…and the right thing will come…trust in your inner intuition and voice…and you will do fine!
Blessings,
Aley
Have you written a 3 column list of the pro's and con's of each option, then look at each from your heart, and double check with your head? Your right path is within, believe it.
I'm another one who couldn't decide what to do with my life for decades longer than most. When I finally went back to university, my first year was hellish because I worried about having to choose a major in my second year.
One day my intro psych prof helped me with this - or rather gave me a boot in the rear - by saying something like this in class: being unable to commit to a career path is a sign of immaturity at best and psychopathology at worst because anything you do will change and teach you, and you will either grow to love it more or go on to something else that your first choice also qualifies you for; but at least you're on your way. Those were strong words. I chose a major based on what I enjoyed most and was best at. Halfway through, when I found out there was no work in an area I wanted to live in with that education, I picked up another major that would get me in at least one door.
I was invited to stay and do a master's in the field of my first love but wanted to get out of the hothouse atmosphere, so I never did do it. (This isn't meant as a hint, just my own story; if I had to decide now, with the current employment situation, I'd go as far as I could.) I don't regret my decision; it was right for me at the time.
As it happened, I ended up teaching, too - I'm also a born teacher and I did love it. My last job was a 4-year stint in an employment program that I wouldn't have missed for the world but that nothing on earth would make me go back to either; by the end I was pretty badly burned out. But the experience and understanding I picked up there has stayed with me as something I am still growing on.
So I'd say choose what you love and what you're best at - in that order. These things have a way of working out. I'd also say you've just told us what you 'should' do, which is the only area you'll excel in and do much more than survive: an MFA in something related to drama. Hope my input helps too..
Oh - my second major was psychology, and my profs were hardly geeky! There are a whole lotta ways these days to combine skills and knowledge into packages that are right for you; I never sat in an office for long, which is why it was always a mess; but I did what I was there to do so well that my supervisors gave up all hope of reforming me.
Blessings,
LT